Life is sweeping by
go and dare before you die.
Something mighty and sublime,
leave behind to conquer time.”
Losing a parent is very hard! This I found out in 2009 when my much-loved Father passed away.
Based in the UK at the time, this distressing event was the motivator that caused me to return to Perth, & make it my home – I didn’t want to be 12,000 miles away in case something happened to my Mother.
Fortunately, she always took care of herself, and exercised regularly, and bounced back from any illness, but…..my location, & her resilience, really had nothing to do with life’s plan, because; heartbreakingly……my Mother passed away at the end of February after a short & unexpected stay in hospital.
Because we (I have 5 siblings) were so unprepared for Mum to make this journey, it’s struck us all in different ways, for myself – my life has seemed to stop – it’s like, I’m in limbo, and yet; I have an innate belief that life goes on in Spirit, but this doesn’t stop me; missing her greatly, and it’s brought with it, a sense of aloneness, that I ‘never’ normally feel.
It’s also highlighted my father’s passing and, the fact that; as the vicar said: “We’re all orphans now”.
I know, I’m not the only person to have lost both their parents, in truth, I consider myself lucky to have had them, as long as I did, but it doesn’t stop the pain or the sense of unfairness. Yet though all this, I’m aware; they’ve only stepped through another door, and continue to watch over me, and the rest of their ‘quite large’ & well-loved family.
Over the last few months, there have been times that Mum has made her presence known. She’s told me she loves me, held my hand whilst I was walking to the local shops (we always used to shop together), and once, she even made her displeasure quite obvious, when I got a non-too-gentle clip around the back of my head.
It’s starting to get cold in Perth now, & late one evening, I turned on the gas heater – I’m not a fan of gas, so very rarely use it – but, I did one night, and the heat, & exhaustion gradually made me nod off. Only to be woken quite abruptly by Mum’s little love-tap. She probably found it quite funny, but then; so did I, after a moment of chagrin.
As time has passed, I’ve remembered everything my parents ever did for me, and I’m very grateful, that I came to earth with my spiritual abilities, because not only, do I know ‘I will see them again!’ but it’s also added a degree of comfort to my family.
So with sadness, comes joy. With grief, comes remembrance, and with faith, comes trust, that; our family & friends never leave us. They walk by our side, and watch, listen, laugh, cry, & most of all; love with us, until it’s our turn to take the next step, in life’s great adventure.
After numerous months away……I’m back!
Not that I’ve been away – well, except for a short UK holiday – I just lost control of my life for a while. But, you’ll be pleased to hear; I’m starting to regain ownership.
Because, of other commitments, over the next few weeks my posts will primarily be pictorial, but; at least, I’m here! And, can I just say…….I’ve missed you all.
During my trip back to Ol’ Blighty, I went to one of my favourite places on earth; Whipsnade Zoo. There’s so much to see, and as you’ll note from the following images the animals well cared for, with plenty of room to roam.
Four weeks ago, I started a new daytime job, and whilst the people are very nice, and the salary always comes in handy, it’s not the position I applied for or the hours I wanted, yet – I accepted their offer when it was made, and for the moment, I’m remaining in the role, because……
Perhaps, it has something to teach me.
Although, within a week of commencing the position; I tore 3 ligaments in my left foot, an injury which is still hampering my life. This includes; no gym, and as it’s a sit-down role, I’m becoming stir crazy. Aaaaagghhhh!!
Not, a full 2 weeks later, I contracted a horrendous cold, which I’m still suffering from, and unfortunately, my contracted hours do not allow for much else in my life, and I’ve temporarily given up many things I enjoy.
Not forgetting, the intensive training, which the role requires, ensuring I’m too tired when I get home, to even want; to pick up my laptop…..as you can imagine; my emails are taking on a life of their own.
(It also has, too many rules & regulations to suit me – I feel like I’ve lost my freedom).
As time’s been passing, I’ve come to the conclusion, that; I’m doing what’s expected, or; what’s considered socially acceptable, because it’s the right thing to do. And, in the process; my life is passing me by, whilst; I’m settling for something I don’t want.
Perhaps, this was the lesson, I needed to learn – My life, is exactly that; “My Life” and I shouldn’t; Settle!
So…….I’ve set my inner-self a time limit, and made a vow, and you’re all welcome to hold me to it.
By the end of September or, preferably; June; I will have moved on from this position, and not only found something better, but it’ll also be more fitting for accomplishing my own life’s dream, and I’m hoping that those of you in similar situations, will do the same.
Find Your Dream, and Live It!
(PS: I haven’t forgotten you. And, thank you to those, who haven’t forgotten me either).
This is very apt, considering the rollercoaster my life has become lately.